They brought me ten-rupee posters of the greatest women on earth. Mona Lisa, Pietà, Shakuntala… I am an old man, I know things. I shook with laughter and winked at them, “So many clothes!”바카라 웹사이트
They knew my name. They had seen me with the movie stars.바카라 웹사이트
They had signed the petition to banish me.바카라 웹사이트
The chap who brings my food, he shapes his brows. His face is so plain I want to paint it.
I asked him yesterday, “Do you know who I am?” He took my paints away.바카라 웹사이트
Philistine! Wife-beater!
This room here is all right–바카라 웹사이트
Red-red-red–
so much Matisse.바카라 웹사이트
But it gets cold, really cold, especially the toilet bowl.바카라 웹사이트
I spend my evenings looking at my phone. Old pictures, old things, places I hope to see again.바카라 웹사이트
Sometimes I look at them so long, they dance in my eyes like a Paul Klee mosaic. (Paul, how I used to love him!)
바카라 웹사이트


My phone is also my alarm clock. It wakes me up and takes me to my village. I smell the soot in our tiny lamp shop. I pick the lint from Abbajan라이브 바카라 sleeve. I climb the tree inside the mosque and click Agfa pictures while they kneel. I crouch on the floor in the madrassa and draw demons in the dirt with a twig. I sell my books at the corner pawn shop and buy yellow paint to make them green.바카라 웹사이트
I roam the streets of Meena Bazaar with a mirror in my pocket to watch Lakshmi.
Now I have no mirror. Only memories.바카라 웹사이트
They pressed eight charges. I told them the story of Venus de Milo.바카라 웹사이트
Ammi died before I could learn her face. Father waited till I was six to get himself a new bride.
The new mother, she was kind. Loved me like her own son. Combed my hair and cut my nails. She even made me cuddle her.바카라 웹사이트
But she would not let me see her things. “The Devil will take your eyes!”
I found Venus in an old silk sock. Hidden beneath the petticoats under the sewing machine.바카라 웹사이트
She was the strangest thing I had ever seen. Pale blue, like a sick chicken egg; S-A-I-G-O-N- made in.
A grown woman, her chest undressed, her sari undone around her waist. She had no arms–
she was shameless.바카라 웹사이트
I touched her all over. Front and back, and front again.바카라 웹사이트
Will they chop off my hands too?
Click!– she split in half. The scent of a thousand lavenders covered my hands (and just like that, I remembered how my Ammi looked).바카라 웹사이트
They caught me. They sent me away. They burned my effigies.바카라 웹사이트
This room smells of nothing.바카라 웹사이트
Today my window is winter. I want another spring.바카라 웹사이트
I want to run my hands over faded treetops and colour them right.바카라 웹사이트
Sahana Ahmed is a fiction writer and poet based in Gurugram. She is the India Country Chair - World Peace for G100 Club and is curating a list of inspiring Indian Muslim women for Rising Beyond The Ceiling. Combat Skirts, her debut novel, was published by Juggernaut Books.